Yesterday would have been my Fathers birthday. He had past away 10 years ago. October 2015 will make it 11 years. I miss him so much.
I have been with my husband 10 years this May and married 8 years this October. I truly believe my Dad sent him my way. Knowing he’d be the man for me. I miss him on days where I need insight of a mans perspective. I miss him when I’d like something fixed quick. I miss him for all the big things he has missed. The birth of his grandchildren, My wedding, our Father daughter dance. All the birthday parties past, Christmas, Easter, Thanksgiving, all the little things that make me think of him.
Today I am taking a drive out the the graveyard to say hello. What breaks my heart is my Mom. I really know the meaning of missing someone when they are gone. Gone forever. I just wanted to pay respect to a man who battled a fast fight. He was diagnosed with cancer and 3 months after he was diagnosed he passed. It was hard to see but at the same time was a life experience I learned from. Truly opened my eyes to never fear the end.
So yesterday was a great day. I was at a moment where I was holding back tears of joy, and happiness when Oprah entered the stage. She has truly inspired me. Inspired me to do what? Listen to myself be positive about things in life and be the best and do the best that I can do and be. Also to let go of something that you’ve tried your hardest to do in life.
Our family is entering a new chapter as one would say. We have our family home up for sale and it’s emotional attachment and a lot of negative energy has been building around the “trying” to sell around it. So last night after the show, I’ve decided to let it go and give it to a higher power as it’s out of my control and I’ve done what I could to this point. I’m now reversing my thoughts and actions and thoughts into something optimistic. I’ve also have been inspired to focus on new beginnings and chapters.
The Murphy’s are expecting a baby in September. So I have some very excited little boys who are going to be “big brothers”. We’re going to find out the gender this time. The first two pregnancies were a surprise. This time I’d like to find out and share that with our children. We’re looking to find our forever home to make this chapter complete I’ve put it into the universe to provide the path that lies ahead of us as a whole family. I wanted to personally thank Oprah for her words, however me being there at the show last night was my way of showing her my appreciation for all that she does for everyone.
I will follow-up with my news in the coming days, weeks & months. Don’t forget to follow your passion and don’t give up on your dreams